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I needed a response to my actions. But since I could not find any one intimate to me who could reciprocate my feelings, I bought a new camera and recorded my video. I used to watch this video many times and I myself used to draw inferences about my actions. The background to this video was that I used to indulge in fantasies when I wanted to sleep. Even I sleep and in dreams I did not want to indulge falsely with someone who could belong to someone else.