Friday, August 8, 2008

Excitement





Hi hello I was just feeling like talking about excitement. And why would I choose to talk about excitement today at this juncture. To day in my office there was a new consultant joining duty and she happened to be a girl. Being a guy I was excited about having a glimpse of her appearance. Now let me talk about myself for a moment. I am a guy of 29 years and a guy of 29 years should have had proximity to a girl or girls of his age or a woman. At age 29 he should have had all this. But then this is something I have not had.
Look at what I have been denied. A very natural thing a thing that is very basic in life has been denied to me all these years. I am not talking about the proximity to my mother or my sister. I am talking about the proximity to someone of the opposite sex. I should have had sex by now. You look at history go back 2000 years 3000 years people would have had all these things the proximity, not only proximity, going beyond proximity having sex, they would have had it all by this time. And so they would have had no excitement at my age. But at this age 29 I am excited having a look at someone of the opposite sex who has joined my office. How weird how crazy how funny. This is manipulation what purpose does this manipulation serve? And who have manipulated this. Who are the people who are responsible for this manipulation does this serve the purpose of good? Well I tell you sex is a birth right and every man and woman will have to have it at the right time it is a very natural and basic thing. Now why does sex always have to be a thing of a hidden agenda why cant it be straight forward why cant it be frank why cant it be honest. Why should we always deal with things like sex, leave sex if you don’t want to consider it. Love is love obscene? Is love vulgar I ask you, why should it be pursued as a hidden agenda? Man Woman I ask you why should love be sought as a hidden agenda? Now why do you always require a license for pursuing love? To drive on the road you require a license. To pursue a career you require a certificate which your university gives. To become a president of a country you require the mandate of its citizens. But then love, who’s mandate do you need for love. Why should it be something which has to be pursued like theft? Why should love be theft? This is crazy, weird and ridiculous. I know of from where I come from I have gone to temples and I have seen explicit sexual content in the place of worship. The sculptures depict explicit sexual content. Why do you associate vulgarity and obscenity when it comes to love, sex. Would you have been born?
If not for this love and the act of sex you would not have been born. Why do you associate irresponsibility when it comes to subject matter of love and sex, if you consider something as a lapse? It is not love it is not the feeling of sex that is a lapse. It is inculcation that is lapse. You have been inculcating rubbish stupidity, indecency and obscenity. I tell you a person of my age should not be excited. Now if I feel excited at this age of a person of an opposite sex joining office. Is it not obscenity vulgarity, who is responsible for this? I don’t want to play the blame game. I want justice, humanity. I am asking for a very basic privilege, the right to love and have sex at the right age. I am not being an animal. I am talking of something beyond that. It dose not mean that if you have love if you are in love you have babies. I tell you we have come beyond those ages. Every thing we do in this world is manipulation. We have manipulated nature but then this manipulation has been there even beyond the time of nature that we have observed. There was not life on this planet. How did life come? What was there before this life? There has had been a manipulation. Manipulation of nature and that was why life came into existence. And it is the same sort of manipulation that happens now. That is the reason why we don’t have babies just because we do something like having sex. Evolve, develop, come up, grow up, become mature I can give you examples but then if I give you examples it will become provocative. It may provoke the feelings so I don’t want to go beyond. Love is a fundamental need. Love that I am talking about that which a child enjoys or knows or understands is not what a person who is an adult is just ok with. He needs a different sort of love. That sort of love becomes essential when becomes an adult. Then why, why shouldn’t he or she get it. Why should he pursue this love as a pervert idea? Why should it always be pervert? Why can’t it be a good thing to ask for.
Phone rings. Ok let me end up I need to attend a phone call.

Well so far my talk has been very emotional. So I thought that I can take a break. I have had a break for one and a half days. And now I am talking in a very balanced state. I have taken necessary actions so that I’ve become balanced. So this emotional talk has been out of a state of desperation. I’ve been starved of something so my words show emotions and a sense of urgency to attain love. But I tell you it is not an easy thing to love. Love it is not spontaneous. At least to me it is not spontaneous. There are a lot of reactions both physical and intellectual things that happen when one comes to the state of love. We’ve heard of love at first sight in literature and in some instances in history. To me love at first sight could only mean infatuation. It is a sort of attraction only that. Now we can progress from a state of infatuation to love. So if it has happened in literature or history. It could be that this attraction infatuation has turned into love. But then love it is a sort of thing that is reached only after a lot of processes physical as well as intellectual processes are complete. Now why do we love? We love so that we can stay together, we can live for our life together. That is why the sexes love. Now there has to be an estimation of the cohesiveness of the relationship for the relationship to be termed as love. The two sexes that are party to this game of love what they do is they meet whenever they get a chance to meet and estimate whether the opposite person is ok to be a life partner. Of course attraction is always there and this attraction is the stepping stone to the next step that which leads closer to the step that which is love. So when they get a chance to meet what they do is they talk, they look at each other. It is both physical as well as intellectual. The physical compatibility is also important as well as the mental compatibility is also important. But the rules are not rigid; the rules in love are not rigid. You never know, there are no hard and fast rules. They say love is blind this is very true. Love can be blind but the meaning of blindness here is not in the level of understanding that which the lovers have. It is the degree of strangeness it is the degree of love being unique. We’ve had instances of people who are very different in culture, meeting together, marrying having children living their life being happy in their life. There are instances where in both of them are not physically as equal in physical attraction. They may not be equal in physical attraction but then they love. It could be that the guy is intellectually good which she desires and it could be she is physically attractive that he desires. So ultimately the thing is you just don’t go and propose to a girl by just having a look at her. You calibrate, you estimate, you try to move closer. You try to find signs of compatibility of cohesiveness and then you move further a step. This is especially particular to people who are quite grown up, who are not so young and naïve. A person of 20 years or 21 years he may not be so very mature in personality. He may just looking at a girl go straight forward and propose to her or she may just go and propose to him. So at that level of maturity it is ok but at this level of maturity at the age of 29 there are a lot of complex processes that are involved. I am not blaming the love at the age of 21 and 22 it happens by attraction and then it grows. It grows into an understanding and then a better level of understanding and then it gets enriched and then there is a lot of education that is involved. As I have said if love has some time to progress it will be very educative. That is why I feel that it has to start early, there has to be an educative curve in love. And then you can get intimate, you can get physically intimate. There is no rigid rule here too.” Physical intimacy” it depends on the culture you are from. If you are from a conservative Indian family then physical intimacy is a taboo. That may not be so if you are from a modern society. But then one fact is there it is that in countries where people are more sexually active there are less incidences of sexually transmitted diseases and things like that. In educative societies where people are active in sex things like sexually transmitted diseases and sexual violence are very less comparing the societies where they say sex is a taboo, it is in these countries that you find that these diseases are more prevalent and violence and sexually related violence is more prevalent. It is a taboo if sex is a taboo then the violation of sex that too becomes a taboo it doesn’t come up. So the rate is quite higher in these countries where sex is a taboo. So what was I talking about, I started with a very emotional tone, I was talking out of desperation and then I took a break so that I could balance myself. And out of the balance there emerged a better understanding of how to pursue this love. The pursuit has to be in terms of the maturity you are in. Ok have a great day bye bye.

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