Chastity and Pursuance

Hey girl I give you my word your chastity is protected in my thoughts.
I know to discriminate and distinguish; I know what to choose to satisfy my carnal desires. I never indulge with you beyond the limits of decency. You must know I don’t plunder beauty, I don’t desecrate the dignity of beauty.

Sathish Kumar Mahalingam.

Hey girl how do I look? How do I look, Do I look smart?
Ok its all a part and parcel of a little amount of your grace
I would say,
Now I am a person who is always obsessed about myself ok?.
But then a thought came to my mind, let go what your smile meant to me.
But what could your smile have meant to you?. Why did you smile at me?
Ok, The answer perhaps to this question could be that you intentionally mostly intentionally wanted to do something good to me. After all why would a girl laugh at a guy who is not that much good in appearance or who is not, let go the appearance even in conduct the way he talks, the way he behaves, his smartness,
Putting it all together why would a girl talk to a person like that?
Not talk, at least laugh ok?
Laughter its something which is of greater significance, let go the talking
Ok talking too is not of much complexity but laughter, What made you laugh at me?

Thinking on this subject or thinking on why you would have laughed at me.
It’s quite a big subject you see?
I'd like to treat it like a subject,
Your laughter because if not for your effort at laughing at me I would not have compiled so many lines of text that could be useful in my book in future.
Hum hm you understand?
So you have done something significant to me. Something very nice, something very great to my life ok ?
The drive that I derived from you makes me live this life to the fullest extent
I derive as much joy as possible from this life, and it is because of you, your thoughts, the more I think about you the more I enjoy life, the more the life means to me, ok? So what is the conclusion?.
I've been talking not things that are of much comprehendible intelligence or intellectuality but then I am just giving a vent to my feelings, a vent to my thoughts. You see ‘the thoughts’ my thoughts require some sort of reciprocation ok? , and from who do I get the reciprocation?.
From you the camera ok.
So what is the conclusion? . The conclusion is that you deliberately, intentionally wanted to do something good to me otherwise no girl would laugh at a boy like that ok?. I am not a dumb guy I am intelligent .One other thing I would like to stress is that just because someone has helped you it doesn’t mean that they become your procession. "You can think about having them as your procession" that is very cunning you see that is how a very what you call a childish person behaves.
I am not a childish person. I am quite mature ok? . Of course I may behave like a child. Behaving like a child and behaving childish is different ok? . So let me be a child, a good child, let me be a mature person, both a child and a mature person a combination of both.
This combination helps me to take your laughter in the right sense ok? .
What is the right sense, what do I mean by the right sense.
Right sense is pursuing my life for my own goodness, and for the goodness of people around me ok? Pursue life not only for your good but for the good of people around you. For the good of people who have made you capable of what you are today ok? for the people who would tomorrow, may derive some sort of guidance from you, a way from you ok?; Ok see your face is before me and your laughter is very near to my eyes.

So when I am talking this I can see your face as I saw it 2 years ago. So I don't feel like turning off the cameraaa. I want to continue talking, I want to see my face in the screen, I want to see my emotions ok? , Because there is no one to reciprocate my emotions so at last at last, I switch off the camera.

Sathish Kumar Mahalingam.